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Did you know that you’re fearfully and wonderfully made by God in His image? Did you know that once you give your life to Jesus you’re a new creation?
“Whoever Brings Blessing Will be Enriched” Proverbs 11:25
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OLD THINGS OF THE PAST
I remember being 19 years old. I was with my girlfriend hanging out in Downtown Kursk, Russia.
Two guys started pursuing us on the streets. It was dark. They were in the car. We were pedestrians.
They forcefully got us in their car and took us to their condo. We were scared. We were helpless.
The guys threatened us. They violated us.
Some time later, my girlfriend died.
The memories of her funeral had stuck with me for almost two decades.
When I shared that Summer with my mom that I was raped, she said “Good for you, now you have more sexual experiences than other girls. Just don’t tell anyone.”
I felt stupid and worthless. I felt like my pain, my life, my dignity … none of it mattered. I felt like I didn’t matter.
For many years, I carried so much pain and anger and shame…
I was angry at those guys. I was angry at myself. I was angry at my mom.
I felt so much shame and guilt…
I saw other people as valuable but I saw myself as useless. I was treated by those guys like an object. I was treated by my mom like an object. And after that, I treated myself like an object, too.
I had no self-respect. I was drinking a lot. Always clubbing. I was sleeping around. Treating my body as a commodity.
I didn’t consider myself valuable at all.
And in no way did I think of myself as wonderful!
My distorted self-perception resulted in having a destructive lifestyle.
Problems with alcohol. Sexual addiction. Excessive anger. Violent behaviors.
All that eventually resulted in depression.
NEW CREATION IN CHRIST
In 2014, I gave my life to Jesus. I slowly began learning that I was new.
I learned that I was a new creation. I discovered that I was born again. I realized my new identity.
2 Corinthians 5:17 says this:
“Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: The old has gone, the new is here!”
The old has gone?
So, do I not have to carry all my past with me into my future anymore?
What a relief!
And if the old has gone, then my pain and shame and guilt are gone, too?
So, then, I am free from my past and from the pain of my past? So, I’m pain-free?
That was my thought process. I was relieved and happy to know that old things had no power over me since I was new.
And then I learned that I was fearfully and wonderfully made.
What???? Who? Me?
My mom always told me that I was an accident, that she didn’t want to have me, and that she went to abort me but the doctor refused to do an abortion due to my mom’s health threat.
She consistently shared with me as I was growing up how much she hated me.
My mom called me a boy’s name till I was 7 years old. She hated that I was born and she hated that I was born a girl.
My father had nothing to do with me.
My grandmother was ashamed of me because I was fatherless and born out of wedlock.
My family called me a miscarriage and they rejected me every day of my life.
I sure never thought of myself as being made on purpose.
I felt like I never belonged here and didn’t have the right to live because I was unwanted and unwelcome.
All that changed when I gave my life to Jesus and discovered that I was made, created, crafted, designed to be here, on purpose. By God!
“I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.”
Thinking about the fact that God wanted me and created me for His purpose in His image gives me chills. I just want to cry. It’s such a relief for someone who didn’t even feel that living was rightful for her.
YOU ARE FEARFULLY AND WONDERFULLY MADE
Your story may be similar to mine in some ways. You may have felt rejected, too. You may have been wondering why you’re here and what’s the purpose of your journey.
Well, I want you to know this one truth: God made you! He created you. God crafted you. You are special and unique because you are His precious masterpiece.
Whatever happened in your past, whatever hurt it caused you to experience, all your pain can be washed away by Jesus.
All those painful things are gone once you give your life to God through your faith in Christ.
When you accept Christ as your lord and savior, you get a new life, a new identity, and a new future.
Your past has no influence over your future. Only your faith in Jesus influences your future.
The addiction, abuse, loss, poverty, hunger, homelessness, betrayal, rape, suicide, divorce, failures, and other afflictions of mine – all were left in my past.
I gave my life to God through my faith in Christ. I believe what happened to Jesus on the cross and who Jesus is. My faith made me new. The blood of Jesus washed my life book as white as snow. I’m new. And I’m living out a new story. I have a new future.
If you accepted Christ as your lord and savior, you are new!
Do you believe it?
Do you believe that you’re fearfully and wonderfully made in God’s own image for His own purpose?
Do you believe in a new future for yourself m, independent from your past?
If so, memorize the Biblical affirmation below.
Practice this affirmation daily to remind yourself that your past has no power over you and you are fearfully and wonderfully made. You are new!
I am fearfully and wonderfully made.
I am fearfully and wonderfully made
By God Almighty, the Great I Am.
Old things all past away at once,
And I am a new creation in Christ.
How do you feel about your past now that you’re new?
Do you feel acceptance, relief, peace, surrender, gratitude, joy, and hopefulness?
Share with me in the comments below. I want to hear from you.
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Anna Szabo is the founder of Online Discipleship For Women, a Christian ministry committed to alleviating suicide among women globally by sharing hope in Christ. Anna teaches how to create a joyful life by embracing God’s word based on her own journey of faith and fortitude.