I am Wise - Daily Devotional for Women by Anna Szabo of Online Discipleship for Women

I am wise #52Devotionals
Have you ever doubted your ability to be wise and make good decisions that lead to God-glorifying life? I have.

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After I endured narcissistic abuse in my marriage and experienced narcissistic projection and gaslighting, I felt incapable of making good decisions. I didn’t believe that I had a good discernment.
If you want to learn more about what I went through to see if you’re going through something similar, read this article: https://www.quora.com/How-do-narcissists-mess-up-your-mind-so-badly-without-you-ever-suspecting-it-I-feel-so-exploited/answer/Anna-Szabo-JD-MBA?share=121f6874&srid=TY7U

FEELING UNWISE
If you make one decision that leads to a bad outcome and then you make another mistake and take another misstep… It’s so easy to end up not trusting yourself.
It’s very easy to arrive to the point where you avoid life and decision-making because you have no trust in your ability to discern well. I’ve been there.
That’s a place of darkness, confusion, paralysis by analysis, self-doubt, and fear. When I was there, I felt trapped. I felt hopeless.
I felt unwise and actually stupid. I felt like my life was getting worse and worse because I lost my wisdom.
It’s because I counted on myself for wisdom.
WHERE WISDOM COMES FROM
You see, we don’t know the past, present, and future. But God does. And He gives us His Spirit of Truth to help us be wise.
According to 1 Corinthians 1:30, Christ is my wisdom. I am in Christ. So, I have His wisdom. So, I am wise. This was hard to believe at first. I just had to ask myself if I believed God’s Word.
1 Corinthians 1:30 says this:“It is because of him that you are in Christ Jesus, who has become for us wisdom from God—that is, our righteousness, holiness and redemption.”
I believed God’s word, so I needed to embrace the truth: I had Christ’s wisdom. 

God’s wisdom is like a gift.
Have you ever walked into a room with a beautiful Christmas tree there seeing clearly the gift wrapped beautifully and marked with your name?
And then you got distracted and left, forgetting the gift…
The gift was already yours. It had your name on it. It belonged to you. It was assigned to you so you can have it. Its purpose was for you to enjoy it.
The only reason why you still didn’t have the gift was because you didn’t accept it. You didn’t take the gift that was yours, so you couldn’t enjoy having your gift.
I found out from studying the Bible that the wisdom I inherited from my creator was already mine. I was given the gift of wisdom.
The only reason why I had not yet had Christ’s wisdom and good discernment was because I never reached out for the gift to take it and have it.
Once I understood where wisdom was supposed to come from, I reached out for the gift that was already mine and I begun to enjoy my newly-discovered wisdom. I was able to make good decisions.
The wisdom I use for making decisions is not my own. I don’t count on myself and my ability anymore. Instead, I pray about my decision-making and God gives me His infinite wisdom through the Holy Spirit in me. I choose Spirit instead on Flesh.
To help you pray through your decision-making and enable you to make wise choices, I created this new tool: ITCEBO model for thought processing.
download the model
It’s very important to be able to make good decisions when it comes to career, family, marriage, business, budgeting, hobbies, health, and relationships.
This model is a blueprint to help you see what decision will cause what outcome based on the word of God.
ITCEBO model download here

BEING WISE
You are capable of making wise decisions if you’re in Christ. Once you accept Jesus as your lord and savior, God gives you His Spirit of Truth.
Isaiah 11:2 says this:“The Spirit of the Lord will rest on him—    the Spirit of wisdom and of understanding,    the Spirit of counsel and of might,    the Spirit of the knowledge and fear of the Lord…”
You have God’s infinite wisdom in Christ and you get it through the Holy Spirit. All you need to do is choose the Spirit over Flesh. See the ITCEBO model for demonstration.
You can always tap into God’s wisdom by following the ITCEBO model.
One thing you need to remember. God’s word doesn’t promise us a perfect life. In fact, God makes it clear in His word that we will have troubles in this world so we can persevere, grow in faith, and share hope with others.
James 1:2-5 says this:“Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you.”
So, clearly, the Bible says we will have trials and we will need to persevere through those trials so that we may have wisdom.
TRIALS FOR HOPE
Being wise and following Christ will not give you a perfect life but it will help you be in God’s will. I’ve experienced many trials in life and now I can share hope with others because I persevered through adversity.
Adversity I experienced in my 35 years of life:

  • Childhood abuse
  • Sexual assault
  • Suicide attempt
  • Sexual addiction
  • Domestic violence 
  • Homelessness
  • Narcissistic abuse
  • Mental cruelty
  • Divorce
  • Car accident
  • Job loss
  • Concussion

You may experience trials in your life. They might be very much in God’s plan for you to uniquely equip you to help His kingdom by sharing hope.
“All you need is to believe and persevere” – I told myself when going through my trials and suffering. And I wrote this poem.
“Perseverance”
Perseverance is about never ever giving up.Every time you fall, you must quickly get up.
Perseverance takes courage and requires you to act in-spite of your fear.When you choose faith over fear, you courageously persevere.
Perseverance is a cure for failure because there’s always that next chance to succeed.If you commit to persevering no matter what, a victorious life you can lead.
poem reading here
Sometimes, our experiences are meant to bring hope to other people. But if we believe in Christ and abide in Him, if we follow His commands and stay in God’s will, we can learn to see our suffering as “pure joy” because we know that God will use it for a His good. 

I used to be depressed and numb from pain in suffering. Understanding God’s word and trusting God’s plan, I can now have contentment because I have hope which fuels my joy.
I wrote a poem about joy and contentment when processing my own life trials and pain from suffering. I’ve learned to be content simply because I trust my good father God and His perfect plan.
“Joy”
Joy is a feeling different than the feeling of happiness.Happiness is temporary and is driven by external circumstances.Joy is internal and is not defined by either power or helplessness.Joy does not depend on our luck, health, career, love, or finances.
Joy is a mental and emotional state of complete contentment.It’s a consistent acceptance of what is and what is to come.Joy exists in the heart and mind that are free of resentment.Joy brings our whole being back to life from being dead or numb. 

Do you believe that you have God’s wisdom? Do you want to be led by the Holy Spirit to making good decisions? Do you want to have joy in life knowing you’re in God’s will?
If you do, memorize this Biblical affirmation I created for you. Remember that you are wise and you have a good discernment (judgement). Your experiences are not ought to give you a perfect life but to give glory to God and hope to His kingdom.
I am wise 
I am wise and I show a good judgement.Jesus has become for me wisdom from God.My experiences for the hope of others are meant.My wisdom is with the Holy Spirit intact.How do you plan to proactively apply God’s wisdom in your current life circumstances?
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