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I am noble and lovely #52Devotionals
Have you ever acted out of fear, anger, jealousy, or dishonesty? I know I have.
“Whoever Brings Blessing Will be Enriched” Proverbs 11:25
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Such behaviors rob us of personality congruence and cause us double-mindless, which results in seared conscience.
UNDIGNIFIED AND DISHONORABLE
I remember the Friday before Labor Day of 2016. I commuted for several hours from Decatur to Cumming, GA coming home from work.
My regular commute to and from work was nearly 100 miles a day. I had two back injuries and was in pain. And I had a husband who was cheating on me, which caused even more pain.
It was a hot afternoon. I was exhausted.
As I pulled into the driveway of our marital residence, Michel texted me that he was gone.
He informed me that his plan was to spend holidays with friends in the mountains.
I was left completely alone in the country house where I just moved to be with Michel, away from my life and friends.
Less than 4 months prior to that, I walked down the aisle and there stood Michel, with tears of happiness in his eyes, declaring his genuine love for me to the world.
It was May 14, 2016. Our wedding day. I became “Missis Szabo.”
After the wedding, Michel abandoned our marriage and declared to me that his bicycle was now his wife he cheated on me with. He said that all he wanted was to be an IronMan and complete in Kona.
He was gone every weekend riding his bicycle from GA to AL and back. Hundreds of miles and dozens of hours spent with his bicycle…
My hope for the Labor Day was to at least talk through our marriage situation.
Now, Michel was gone.
I was angry. I was irate.
I felt mistreated, disregarded, abandoned, and deceived.
Driven by my rage, I texted Michel a middle finger picture accompanied by profanity.
As a hot-tempered Russian woman, I told Michel in detail where he should go and how exactly to get there.
What I said was so mean.
My words were filled with hatred and jealousy. Why?
I was jealous because I wanted to be with my husband but he didn’t want to be with me.
My words and behaviors were classified as foolish vs wise, sinful vs godly, rough vs lovely, arrogant vs humble, undignified vs noble.
After texting all that to Michel, I cried in my car about who I chose to be. I was becoming a slave to sin.
I couldn’t imagine how these hurtful words were making their way out of my mouth into the universe to cut open the heart of the very man I so loved.
NOBLE AND LOVELY
Psalm 16:3 says this:
“I say of the holy people who are in the land, They are the noble ones in whom is all my delight.”
God was delighting in His people who were noble. I wasn’t… God was not delighting in me.
“Noble” is defined by Merriam-Webster dictionary as having, showing, or coming from personal qualities that people admire, such as honesty, generosity, courage, high morals, righteousness, and ethics.
The Bible defines it almost the same.
Colossians 3:12 says this:
“Therefore, as God’s chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness, and patience.”
Why did I not clothe myself with such qualities?
That evening, I met with my pastor’s mother at Panera Bread in Cumming. I wept as she ministered to me.
She taught me that I can be noble and lovely, meaning I can choose to walk in the Spirit and not in the Flesh, which would result in humility, kindness, compassion, and gentleness.
And she gave me “Marriage on the Rocks” DV series to watch.
“I can be noble and lovely” – I thought to myself – “not in my own power but through the power of Christ in me.”
SPIRIT VS FLESH
How could I go from being irate and harsh to being noble and lovely?
Watching a DVD series she gave me was thought-provoking but I needed a solid plan of action.
The Bible says in Colossians 3:12 that because I’m new in Christ, noble, and dearly loved by God as His child, I will choose to clothe myself with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness, and patience.
I realized that it’s because of Christ in me that I can choose to walk in the Spirit and not in the Flesh. With Christ, I can choose to be noble and lovely vs angry and harsh.
When Christ died on the cross and paid for my sins with His blood, He made me blameless, righteous, innocent, holy, pure, and sinless.
That’s called justification and has to do with the past.
Justification is an event. I was justified the moment I accepted Jesus into my heart.
Now, I was on my journey of sanctification. It has to do with my present.
Sanctification is a process of becoming Christ-like by using our free will: to submit to Christ and not to sin. Abiding in Christ results in being Christ-like.
As God’s daughter, I was noble and lovely by nature in Christ already, and to show it with my behavior, I needed to clothe myself with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness, and patience every moment of every day.
That Friday afternoon I didn’t do that.
Walking in the Spirit or walking in the Flesh is an everyday choice.
With my free will, I choose daily to follow either one path or the other.
Can you relate to my story?
Do you ever choose the emotions and behaviors of Flesh, even though you know God’s will for you is to walk in the Spirit?
NOBLE AND LOVELY
If you said yes, remember that you are noble and lovely in your identity as God’s child already.
All you need to do is to proactively choose to clothe yourself with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness, and patience.
To help you remember your identity in Christ and to remind you of your power to walk in the Spirit, I created the Biblical affirmation below.
Memorize it and practice it daily to prevent yourself from walking in the Flesh and having regrets.
I am noble and lovely
I am righteous. I am blameless.
I am innocent and holy.
I am pure and I am sinless.
I am noble and I’m lovely.
How will you use this Biblical affirmation in your everyday life to have a congruent personality and clear conscience as you’re becoming Christ-like on your journey to sanctification? Let me know in the comments below.
Anna Szabo is the founder of Online Discipleship For Women, a Christian ministry committed to alleviating suicide among women globally by sharing hope in Christ. Anna teaches how to create a joyful life by embracing God’s word based on her own journey of faith and fortitude.