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In 2017, God began speaking to me daily. He gave me Biblical poetry and Christian affirmations through the Holy Spirit. Those conversations with Him inspired my Biblical products. May they be a blessing to you!
Dear #TruePrincesses! Thanks for being a part of my community.
I call you a Princess because once you accept Jesus as your Lord and Savior, you join His royal family, becoming a child of the King of the entire universe. Since your Father is a King, you are surely a Princess! This fundamental truth wasn't something I knew growing up... I was born in Kursk, Russia to a single mom who didn’t want me. She shared with me how she got pregnant accidentally, went to abort me, but for the sake of her health, she couldn't undergo an abortion. So, I was born. My mom dressed me up as a boy for a long time and called me a boy's name "Anton" because she was disappointed in me being born a girl.
That’s where the troubles of my life all started: multiple addictions, two suicide attempts, two sexual assaults, three failed marriages, four successful college graduations, one award-winning book published, and a long-lasting suicidal depression. Well, ok, since we are being vulnerable here, I will admit one more thing: I was locked up in jail for one night back in Russia for being physically violent while drunk.
The root of it all was the fact that I knew with confidence how unwanted and unloved I was. My mom made sure to remind me every single day that she hated me. I was always seeking love and acceptance, I always wanted to belong and find my identity. The confusion led me to some really bad places...
In 2008, I came to America as a mail-ordered bride (no, I'm not kidding). That marriage resulted in domestic violence. After the Prince Charming abused me four times, three Dunwoody police officers took me away. In 2009, I was homeless, hopeless, and helpless, living in a shelter for victims of domestic violence called International Women's House, in a foreign country, without speaking the language. I taught myself English in 1.5 years while listening to Frank Sinatra. I passed academic English test on January 24th, 2011, and was accepted to Georgia State University Professional MBA and was working in Magistrate Court of Fulton County. In 2013, I published a book about my life story called "Turn Your Dreams And Wants Into Achievable SMART Goals!" which was recognized by Indie Excellence Awards and International Book Awards. That same year I graduated with an MBA from Georgia State University.
In 2016, I got married to a very nice Christian man. He filed for divorce four months after our wedding stating that he actually no longer wanted to be married but wanted to be an IronMan instead. That resulted in a suicidal depression for me. That's when God placed into my heart the desire to seek His truth for my identity and purpose. Through that journey, I discovered everything I share here: peace, hope, and joy. The most important breakthrough of that painful season was the #52Devotionals ebook. Every Biblical devotional included there came from my real conversations with God.
While healing, the six pillars of joyful living - faith, food, fitness, finances, felicity, and fortitude - were given to me. Online Discipleship For Women was born as a platform for encouraging and empowering women to create joyful lives by embracing God's word.
According to John 16:33, Jesus said this: “In this world you will have trouble...”
I don’t know why when we come to Jesus, we get excited about going to heaven, being sanctified, having the Holy Spirit to guide us daily, being loved and accepted... Yet, we don’t get excited about troubles in our world...
I was excited to follow Christ and enjoy His unconditional love, but when unimaginable troubles broke my perfect Christian world, I was devastated. And I was confused: “God, didn’t you say you’ll defend, protect, and love me? Didn’t you promise me lots of good things? This what I’m going through can’t possibly be good. So, are you even real, God? Are you there?! Hello? Can you hear me?”
Isn’t it true that believing in a Santa Claus kind of God is much easier than believing in the God who says troubles are coming, adversity will happen, and we will be in pain? He basically guarantees all those things to us...
And He asks us to trust in Him because - according to the Bible - He’ll use all things for good and His grace is sufficient.
Troubles in this world led me to start Online Discipleship For Women because through those worldly troubles I grew closer to Jesus, the real God, not the Santa Claus God, the risen savior who has a special plan to use my story for His glory.
I never imagined starting a ministry for Christian women. Not only because I wasn’t a Christian but also because something like this would be the least thing on my mind. The typical things I was excited about for most of my adult life were sex, alcohol, travel, night clubs, hairdos, and shopping.
I came to Christ in 2014, and He’s been working in my heart ever since, drawing me closer one day at a time.
In the beginning, I did believe in the Santa Claus kind of Jesus: I’ll check the boxes for being nice and He’ll give me a fairytale kind of perfect life.
Well, that’s not how things turned out for me...
I discovered the depths of the Gospel listening to the teachings of Randy Pope at Perimeter Church and reading the book of Laura Story called “When God Doesn’t Fix It.”
Interestingly enough, the book was a gift for the graduation from premarital counseling in 2016. And as I walked down the aisle a few months later, I was wondering why such a book would be given to me because my marriage - I was confident - was going to be God-glorifying and perfect since all the proper boxes were checked.
I had a performance-based view of God. However, He wanted me to be in the intimate relationship with Him and be completely dependent on Him.
So, that fantasy ended as my new husband filed for divorce four months after our wedding...
That’s when I read Laura’s book. I read the Bible, too. I dove deep into the Gospel and found hope and healing. And I finally accepted the “troubles” realizing that God’s plan is good, I just need to have faith and trust in the Lord with all my heart.
So, just a few months after my wedding, I was divorced and discovered that there’s no Santa Claus God.
I also discovered that we have a sovereign, loving, kind, and understanding Heavenly Father who has a perfect plan we can’t see since we’re too close. We don’t have His infinite intelligence and can’t comprehend how divorce, cancer, addictions, and other “troubles” can possibly be used for good. Well, at least I couldn’t understand that...
Perimeter Church loved on me through my divorce and depression. With the people in God’s community who were “church” to me, I was able to recover and rebuild my life. And in the process, God placed this ministry in my heart.
The desire to share the Gospel has been burning on the inside every day ever since, even though I don’t believe I’m really qualified for this kind of thing. I’m not super-sweet and often times people see me as aggressive or arrogant because of my confident and loud tone of voice, tall figure, high heels, and make up.
When I think about women’s ministries, I think “a sweet southern bell” who is soft-spoken, sweet, and humble in her appearance.
Yet, I do see how God uniquely equipped me through “troubles” and while I fought Him for a long time, He won, so here’s my ministry for Christian women.
Please don’t think I’m perfect or able to quote scriptures left and right. Oh no! I’m still a human with flesh fighting the Spirit daily. But I do love Jesus and I want to share His good news with YOU.
Not everyone has access to a physical church like Perimeter, and I mean a building full of people who can pray for you and love on you. But most people do have access to WiFi from at least somewhere some of the time.
I want to meet you here, online, and be your community, to pray for you and to encourage you, just like my church community prayed for me and encouraged me.
That’s why I founded Online Discipleship For Women. Enjoy my Christian podcast, watch my YouTube videos, explore my Biblical wall art, download the book of the devotionals I wrote for you, and send me your prayer requests.
Welcome to my community of #TruePrincesses!
Relax your mind and rejuvenate your soul with Christian guided meditation for women authored and narrated by yours truly, using original Biblical Affirmations, Spiritual Poems, and Christian Prayers.